From semiconductor to fine arts and teaching would not be such a huge leap if you have spent 6 years taking adventures of motherhood, inspirations, more motherhood and pondering what to do to make yourself even more meaningful.
After years and years of contemplation, I’ve decided to take art to the next level and become an artist. But to fund that decision (why, art is expensive!) I’ve also decided to teach art to kids. Now that I think about it, I do not know why I didn’t decide this a year back. Or the year before. It’s what I’ve always wanted to do, and what I was doing some way or other, even though I didn’t dare enough to call it a career. Creating art and working with children are my 2 different passions which have been growing on me simultaneously. Now it’s time for the next step.
I still remember the year 1999 when it was time to make the big decision, when I was supposed to decide what to study. “You want to be an artist? But how can you make a living as an artist?”. I believed I couldn’t too. I knew no other artist than my own teacher. While I loved and respected him, I wasn’t quite sure I could do what he did for a living.
He was so passionate about what he did. He even picked a handful of students to teach oil painting for free. He didn’t ask any of us if we were willing to pay. I was spending most of my free time in his studio/school painting along with him and some of the other students who survived the initial days of learning.
I didn’t notice at the time that he was not focusing was making a living. He was actually focusing on making life.
I’m still thankful to him for those lessons on basics. I’m not sure if I would even have touched a brush without his teaching. My drawing skills were restricted to using sketch pens (markers) and copying pictures of mickey mouse whenever I could find one. The town that I grew up in wasn’t so exposed to fine arts. (I shouldn’t forget my dad too, who decided it essential to put me in the art class even though it was quite out of ordinary given the time and place we lived in. Thank you Daddy)
And now is the time to stop contemplating and start acting. I’ve been working hard. For the first time in my life, I’m creating art for some reason other than just amusement. I’ve been creating lesson plans. Believe me this part of it is much more difficult that I ever imagined and much more satisfying too. I’ve been giving practice lessons and happy to find that my lessons are working.
I believe now is my turn to start working to make a life. Living would just follow.